Warning – I’m a bitch. Don’t read on if you want to keep thinking I’m a nice person…I have very clear ideas on how the world is supposed to work and when it doesn’t go exactly how I expect, I get very confused. Confused and angry.
I mean, if someone tried to break your kneecap, you’d probably hate them – right? I would. Maybe it’s my jaded past but I just don’t understand the second chance mentality. There are sooooo many people in the world. If said kneecap-buster wants to be friends, why doesn’t s/he go find someone else to buddy-up with? Why should I have to be a good guy and put myself out there to potentially get hurt again? I just don’t get it. I don’t understand why anyone would want to risk themselves for someone else’s mental well-being. It’s not your fucking job to make sure everyone else is happy. Your job is to make sure YOU are happy. That’s it.
Fuck. I’m just too angry to think straight and I know this post is going to leave a lot of people confused and angry. Not my intention but if I don’t get this shit out of my head, it’s going to explode in some sort of argument and no one needs that. So, I’ll just pretend I didn’t write it and you can pretend you didn’t read it and we’ll all pretend everything is a-okay when it’s not. It’s not okay at all, but, in time, it will be.
I trust that you have a good reason for feeling the way you do. If you need any help or to talk to someone or such, lemme know. Stay safe out there.
Work through it. You always do young lady……….
Well if yer a bitch, then I’m a bitch too. Or is that son of a bitch (my mother would agree to that one)?
There are some things that forgiveable. Minor things easily. Moderate things with some work and time, and rebuilding of trust.
Major things? Fuck. That. Noise. Major enough, and I’ll scorch the earth just to make sure you [general you, not you, you Tat.] can have any of it, even if it means burning myself doing it.
Hmmm.
I actually did have someone try to break my kneecaps once (with a Gran Torino, no less) and I forgave them. What a stupid thing to do.
I’m fairly big on cutting people a break, but somethings..
Somethings there’s no coming back from.
Hugs, hon.
Its all relative. Depends on Who did it and what they did.
If someone you love fucks up of course they get more leeway. More forgivability. The farther from your inner space people get, the less forgiveabilty they get!
Its good you wrote about it.
Time and perspective make a lot of difference.
And this does not make you a bitch.. just someone tired of being kneecapped. (or seeing it happen to others)
Hugs.