I “slipped” today and indulged in 4 cigarettes in less than 2 hours during and immediately following an extremely stressful bridesmaid-related event. I put slipped in quotes because I really want to just go buy a carton and admit that I’m just a huge loser with no self-control, but I haven’t cracked and bought any. I don’t have any fingernails left and I think I cleaned the grocery store out of all their ice-cream, but I haven’t given in to tempation yet. Shit I wish this didn’t suck as much as it does. I’m going to go cry in the shower now and try not to bang my head into the wall out of sheer frustration. Guh
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