So much for the fuck-fest I was thinking of for DOSC’08. Recent events have left me more STD-paranoid than ever which makes me totally uninterested in sex. I’m trying not to be really annoyed about it. I’m trying to focus on the positive. I’m trying not to think about it as a wasted $600+ on a sex weekend without the sex. Add to all that my new shrink wants to start weaning me off one of my anxiety meds. Argh, meh and grrr don’t even begin to cover how I’m feeling right now.
so why the change of heart?, a part from the fear of STDs, what made you be interested in it in the first place, I’m curious to know is all?
is it the fear of falling for someone whilst there, the emotional attachment, etc..
I’m interested, hell at the least curious too
I had hoped the weekend would be a chance to leave my brain in Jersey and give my body a hedonistic vacation as full of sex and S/M as I could manage. Beside recent events, the partner-in-crime I had hoped would accompany me isn’t going to attend so my fantasy doesn’t look likely for this year.
I don’t have a fear of unintentionally getting emotionally attached while at camp. One, it’s very rare that I engage anything other than my physical self that falling for someone is so unlikely. And two, it’s happened before and that’s working out okay.