The box is there for a reason
Spent most of this weekend sleeping. Think I’m fighting off a cold. I should be prepping for the New Years Eve party I’m hosting on Wed. night, but I’m just so tired.
Had a nice xmas and a good b-day too.
Still hate my job. Still unmotivated to do much about it aside from gripe.
Going back to sleep now.
As always, there’s not enough time to catch you up on what I’ve been up to. Suffice to say, nothing too exciting aside from a trip to the Aquarium last weekend with some great people.
So much to do this weekend - I need to find a new job (which involves updating my resume, professional website, printed sample book and various job boards), do my weekend errands (cat litter, laundry, pick up prescriptions, etc.), put together a hand out on first aid for burns, catch up on my emails and balance my checkbook.
Can I take a nap yet!? 
So much for the fuck-fest I was thinking of for DOSC’08. Recent events have left me more STD-paranoid than ever which makes me totally uninterested in sex. I’m trying not to be really annoyed about it. I’m trying to focus on the positive. I’m trying not to think about it as a wasted $600+ on a sex weekend without the sex. Add to all that my new shrink wants to start weaning me off one of my anxiety meds. Argh, meh and grrr don’t even begin to cover how I’m feeling right now.
This past Saturday, Seraphin and I went to the Eighth Annual Butterfly Festival from 12 to 4pm at the Watershed Reserve in NJ.
This year there weren’t many types of butterflies but I still took a lot of pictures and had a great time at the visitor center and the various ‘green’ booths.
It always strikes me as weird that Lady Bugs, Butterflies and Fireflies don’t gross me out but every other type of bug makes me squeal. For instance, at the Festival, there was an Insect Zoo and one of the attractions was Madagasgar Hissing Cockroaches. Eeeewwwwww! Those suckers are huge and they scurry/scuttle just the way the german ones do but they are huge!!! (shudder)
It seems that I am taking on too much (again) and the pressure is so much that I’m letting things slip. I lost my glasses, forgot my keys, left my phone charger behind, and the list goes on.
I talked to a few people about it and it looks like I need to cut back in order to regain some balance. That means I’m going to be saying No a lot more often. Not to you, my fans and online friends - I have already cut back here so much that any more would be like walking away and I’m just not going to do that. So who will bear the brunt of my new limits? Good question. I’m still mulling that one over.
Oh, and last weekend I was in Arizona visiting my grandparents. It was really nice but not quite long enough.
Nothing else for now - Need to get to bed so I can wake for work in the morning. <hugs>
Today was just terrible. If we could go back and erase it, I’d be a happy girl.
There were massive layoffs at my job today. A lot of people I thought of as friends are gone - just gone - and that makes me sad.
Things aren’t going well for Flagg and that makes me very sad.
How’s that song go? “If wishes were trees, the trees would be falling.” Yeah, I’d trade a whole forest for my friend if I could.
(hugs)
Another Quick Recap:
Friday, I got to see my favorite artist with my girl and her family before curling up beside her gorgeous body.
Saturday was a wonderful, sleep-filled treat - first with my girl, then with my Daddy.
Yesterday, I spent all day with my zoo.
I am ready to face the week.
My class at TES on BDSM Blunders went really well last night. Thanks to all who attended and participated. It was especially nice to have my Daddy, Sister and Girlfriend all supporting me.
This weekend will be busy in NYC with all the NYLW and PolyNYC events going on, but I’ll be home watching movies, catching up on e-mails, looking for a house to rent and playing with my dogs.
I’m totally exhausted, covered in welts and bruises, and am very happy with my life. Camp was great! I saw so many familiar faces and met a bunch of new ones. I had a few new experiences and repeated a bunch I haven’t touched in ages. I reconnected with some very important friends and added some more to my ever-expanding spiderweb of contacts, lovers, friends, fucks and so on. I’m totally unprepared to go into details now about the weekend but I’ll leave you with this … I got fucked by a porn star and then got invited to visit her and her hubby in thier home town!