A lovely person recently wrote the following in a FetLife post and it really resonated with me.
People come and go in life. Some stay for a time, be it short, to teach, to learn or to grow. Some step in and back out because of their inability to accept, give, or receive what is needed or offered. Some are easy to let go of in life, and other are much more difficult.
I’m one of those people who often ‘go’. I’m not easy to be friends with because I’d rather stay home with my animals than go see the people I love. I can’t tell you how many times I hear “Wow, I haven’t seen you in ages!” And they are right.
It’s not that I don’t love my friends, it just that I am a bit of a socially akward person (believe it or not) who is much more comfortable in front of her computer than hanging out in person.
Really, it’s not you – it’s me and I’m working on it.
Has it really been 4 months since my last update? Sheesh! All I can say in my defense is that I’ve been super chatty on twitter. You can follow me @tatsumi.
So, to wrap up the last 4 months…
- I stopped doing Freelance Graphic Design and started my own company with my girlfriend. Soulhuntre and Kimi are both super supportive - Yay poly!
- My very good friend and leather-uncle passed away. I miss him lots.
- My mom and I went to Disney World in November for a few days and I actually had a pretty good time at the park and with my family.
- I had a nice 35th birthday last month and good holidays considering all the stress that comes with them.
- I just got back from a short vacation in Arizona where I visited my grandparents and loved the warm weather.
- Shortly, girlfriend and I will head to Texas for the National Task Force’s Creating Change conference in Dallas.
- And I’m working my guts out trying to get this company off the ground. Given the current economic situation, we’re doing okay but not as well as we could/should be.
That’s about it! Look for another update in the summer. LOL!
Wednesday morning, I made myself a protein shake and tried to ignore the nausea that had been coming and going for the past 2 weeks. A few hours later, I started hiccuping.
I’ve dealt with bouts of hiccups since high school and usually they go away on thier own after a few hours to 2 days. The longest I had them was during my first stint at college where they lasted for 4 days and only went away when I got muscle relaxers from the nurse on campus at which point I slept for 2 day straight.
Today marks day 3 of my battle with the synchronous diaphragmatic flutter (SDF). I have an appointment with my doctor at 2:30pm this afternoon. If you want to see some of the crazy things I’ve done to myself over the last three days, click the More link. Continue reading ‘Hiccups’
I had big plans for today (there are 3 town street fairs within 20 miles of my house and 1 is a gay pride celebration) but it’s gloomy, rainy, damp, humid and kinda yuck outside. Soulhuntre, Kimiko and Seraphin are coming over anyway (because they’re great family and I’d kill them if they bailed) but now I’m not sure what to do with them when they get here. Meh. I should probably just put on an extra layer and drag everyone out as planned. I’m probably just being sullen and moody for no good reason. <shrugs> I’m like that sometimes.
I miss seeing my non-leather-family. I’d like to schedule some catch up time with those of you I dont’ see often. Please email me and let me know if you want to get together (for coffee, dinner or a date night) and when you’re free.
Ed. Note: We DID go out as planned, the weather was gorgeous and we had a great time. I was just being a ninny and that cleared up after about 30 minutes of outdoors and sunshine.
If you come to the site to read this blog, you’ll notice a few new things. Yesterday, I replaced the header image and added a new page. Today, thanks to Viviane’s Blogroll, I’ve updated my links list to point at the sites I think are worth a look.
Did you know that NYC’s 2009 LGBT Pride March is Sunday June 28, 2009? I think I might march this year. Anyone else plan to walk with TES?
Not that I’m a big political animal, but I feel the need to share the good news in Iowa today. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/30433846/
Crazy that IOWA is more progressive than most of the East Coast, but there it is.
Published on
April 26, 2009 in
Personal.
A lot has changed about me since I was a co-ed. Some good and some not-so-good. There is some seriously personal, seriously heavy shit behind the cut. You have been warned… Continue reading ‘When I was in college…’
Speaking of getting out more often, I’m actually going out tonight to a friend’s birthday party in the city. I’ll be back home tomorrow evening or Thursday morning. Gotta love that warm weather 
Last month I finally bit the bullet and quit my day job. They had been making my life hell for over 20 months and at the prompting for my friends and family, I finally told them where they could shove it – in a very professional way, of course. Even still, it felt pretty good to be rid of them.
Now, I’m doing some freelancing, working on my physical self (diet & exercise) and enjoying being home with my zoo.
Today I’m heading to NYC for a quick meeting and then to a ‘pick-up-for-women’ seminar being hosted by a scene friend.
I’m hoping to get out more now that my work situation isn’t draining all of my energy. We’ll see! Anyone doing any fun scene stuff in the next few weeks?
While at a DFP play party this weekend, I was reminded by a new friend that I hadn’t updated my blog in ages. I have to admit that I’ve kinda been hiding out for the last few months. I could bemoan my existence and list all the whiny reasons, but I’d rather skip that and simply say I’m sorry. I’ll try not to keep you all in the dark just because I don’t feel like being social. Because really, once I start being social, I tend to have a lot of fun! Especially when I’m with people who understand that I’m a little crazy at times.
Case in point, I had a really great time at the party and will certainly be returning in the near future!